Trials of Heather

Sunday, August 27, 2006

Bad Bad Blogger...

Sorry that I haven't been blogging much lately... went though a lot of depression lately... I just pulled myself out of it this morning, when my husband sat down with me as I was crying and told me that I shouldn't be so negative anymore...I need to be positive and hopefully thing will happen... I think finally I might be on the up swing of that right now though. I made it through everything and I got the ok from the doctor to try again now... So we were going to wait until after our Florida trip which will happen at the end of September... But I think Hubby saw the sadness in my eyes from having to wait so we are going to try again. I hope everything works this time and goes to the end. I am scared beyond belief right now to even think that we are trying again... I guess I should take this one step at a time though, right????

I bet you also are curious about our Florida trip to right?? We started planning a trip to Florida to get away from it all here. At first I wasn't so keen on it since I felt we might be running away from everything here, but now I really want to go. My dad lives in Florida so I am very excited. I found this Hotel at Animal Kingdom Disney Lodge, it is on Disney Animal Kingdom's lot, so you can see animals from our hotel room.... VERY excited about that... I would post a link but I don't know how to do that on here. I am new to blogger...Sorry. Then we are going to go to all of Disney's parks.. And then go to Universal Studios, and go to Emeril's Orlando restaurant to eat... .And we are going to the beach and spend some time with my dad and my step mom. And going to Kennedy Space Center. :) Gives me something to look forward to since everything else didn't go so well.

Friday, August 04, 2006

I'm starting to feel more like myself again.... Sorry that it has been so long since I last posted. It is crazy at work right now.

My HCG went from 52 on 7/18 prior to my D&C,(which i had on 7/21)
to 37 on 7/27
to 9 on 8/3

so it is going down... I am feeling very relieved. I have to go back in on August 10 for what I hope to be my final time to check my HCG.... I am hoping it goes to zero. The Pathology report came back normal so I don't know what that means. I don't know if I should take that as the baby was normal or my tissue. I just want to get on with my life now... I will always feel for my loss. Lately I have been feeling depressed but hoping that will get better with time... I don't know I am new at this. I am waiting for my period to start, which I don't have a clue when that will start, since everything has been out of whack since June. I guess wait and see.

I talked to the Dr about getting pregnant again and she thinks it should be fine. I am hoping it will. We probably wouldn't try again for a little bit to try to get things back to normal again. The Dr. didn't tell us when we could try again, but it wouldn't be for a bit. With the D&C I maxed out the flex benefit money, so it will be a little bit, maybe start trying in Nov. Or Dec. I don't know.