Labels: Baby
Labels: Baby
On Saturday i will be 20 weeks pregnant. At my ultrasound last Tuesday they told me everything was fine with my baby. Which is so awesome. I am scared everyday though that something bad will happen. I still can't believe i have made it this far. It is scary and exciting all in one. I am half way there. I still haven't felt my baby kick and am not sure why. I keep reading how all these women feel the baby kick at 16-18 weeks and i still haven't felt anything. I do have a nice round of round ligament pain though. And that sucks so far.
Labels: Baby
I haven't been on here in ages. I needed to get away for a while. So much has happened. I needed emergency surgery in July because i hemorrhaged from my HCG levels being so high and still had a piece left from the M/C. That was very scary and i was told that i might not be able to have a kid ever because of scar tissue. We decided that I needed a new Dr, so we switched. I am happy to say that i am 13 weeks pregnant and hoping that everything will stay going the right way! I SOOOOOO hope that i get a baby out of this FINALLY! I have started to gain weight which is freaking me out. And now my clothes don't really fit. I might have to get some maternity clothes! That is too scary for me. If all goes well my Due date is May 31, 2008.
Well my hormone levels are still not zero. This is ridiculous....
I had some more problems... i had an elevated hCG hormone levels... it was 300 a week ago and i was still spotting 4 weeks out. Now it dropped to 90 so hopefully it will keep dropping.
I told my husband that i was read to start trying again... i am having second thoughts all of a sudden... I am starting to freak out. I am so scared that it will happen again. Maybe i am not ready yet. And then another part of me says that i had better go for it since i would like to have a baby soon. And i don't think i could be happy knowing there is a beautiful crib and rocking chair up in the nursery gathering dust. I really wish we hadn't bought all of that yet and got the nursery ready so early... we really thought that tragedy wouldn't strike twice....we were horribly wrong. I want to get past this i really do, but it is hard sometimes. I really thought that i would have had a baby in my arms by now. I have to gear up for another go around and pray that everything work out this next time.
Labels: Miscarriage # 2, TTC # 3
OK, Sorry it took me so long to write back. I have a new game plan. I have a golf-ball sized cyst on my ovary. It is the type that shouldn't affect a pregnancy so they think it didn't cause my 2 m/c's. The Dr. is basically giving me 6 months to try to get pregnant again. If i am not pregnant in 6 month i will have to have another ultrasound to check on the cyst. The Dr. is hoping that it isn't currently growing. She doesn't want to removed it until we have a baby because it could cause scar tissue making it harder to conceive again. Given the size of my cyst it could cause problems... i guess it could grow bigger and cause the ovary to twist on itself causing intense pain and emergency surgery to remove it. I hope it doesn't come to this. I am praying that i will get pregnant soon...and when i do i have to call my Dr. to get an appointment ASAP and get a blood test to check progesterone levels to make sure it isn't too low. Also i will have a early ultrasound then too, although a lot of good that did me last time since it showed the baby was fine then. All i can say is that i am starting to feel a little bit better, but still manage to cry everyday, but usually only once instead of most of the day. I am trying to just go with the flow but it is harder some days than others. I was given the go ahead to try again anytime, but am choosing to wait a cycle just to make sure everything is where it should be. I will admit I am scared to death! I pray i don't have another miscarriage. I don't think i could handle dealing with that again.
Labels: Miscarriage # 2