Well my hormone levels are still not zero. This is ridiculous....

I had a blood test today and haven't found out the results yet. I guess i will have to wait until tomorrow. It was my birthday yesterday and all i could think about was how much i miss not being pregnant. I should have had a baby by now. I am going on a diet to lose some weight since this whole pregnant and then m/c cycle has caused some weight gain and I really am not liking it. Don't get me wrong i would love to be pregnant again, but while we wait and try i will be trying to cut some weight. I heard that this could help me in the getting pregnant part too and i am willing to try anything at this point.

Sorry that i haven't been on here in forever. I guess i needed a break and it was less painful maybe not to write here, i don't know. I can't stand the Mother's Day commericals that are on TV lately. I have to flip though them. I start crying otherwise uncontrollably. I want a baby so badly. I hope i get great results tomorrow. I want to get on with my life and try again.