I'm back... We're still trying....still NOT pregnant and just got my AF today....so i sit here at 9:45pm on a Thursday night while my husband is in bed alone and I'm crying because it hurts so badly. I want a baby so badly... I just want one thing in my life...ONE, and i can't seem to pull that off... I don't even know how many people read this blog anymore, since i haven't posted for so long... I thought i could do this alone... i can't... i need my blog buddies. I missed everyone. I'll try to write more tomorrow, and hopefully i can be more upbeat, but for now i feel defeated and lost and alone.